I’m as volatile as potassium with water, and more up and down than the most dedicated hillwalker. Because of this, managing my emotional state can be tricky.
I’ve had a rough time recently. And coming out of it is taking longer than one would wish for. Two very big and related issues at present are extreme exhaustion and near total lack of motivation.
So, it’s nice to think back to times not too long ago, when I was happy. Every now and then, I’m getting moments of contentment, again. And sometimes even outright happiness.
Anxiety is another factor that inhibits either equilibrium or happiness. And I’ve recently had plenty of it, for various reasons. One of which was the result of my car breaking down whilst working.
It turns out that the reason this fell out the way it did was that I didn’t call through the breakdown to the Amazon Flex support line during my shift. I reported it immediately – or so I thought – via the app. And phoned it in the following day.
Amazon Flex no like-ee! And it went down on record as a ‘terms of service violation’. Which is bizarre, as it wasn’t that at all.
I had a week or so without work whilst my car was fixed. And have been back at work now about a week. Every day I’ve been checking my Dashboard/Standing. Hoping for and expecting to see an upturn.
Finally, today, it’s happened. Phew! What a relief.
FOOTNOTE:
An intriguing footnote to this anxiety inducing episode is that Amazon appear to have expunged it altogether! How odd. It’s as if it never happened. I find that bizarre. But I’m glad.