It’s nearing midday. And after another night of ‘Zopiclone to the rescue’, it’s another morning of laying in bed feeling totally and utterly shattered.
I both do and don’t like to do this. I love to stay in bed, frankly. As I’m G’damn tired. And it’s warm and cosy. Esp’ with Chester snoozing close by.
Today, I’ve slept like a log. At least post Zop’. I wanted to do without. As I don’t want to be dependent. But having fallen asleep on the couch earlier, when we came upstairs to bed my brain went into anxiety overdrive.
So I popped a Zop’, and read a chunk more of Shelby Foote’s monumental and highly enjoyable The Civil War. And finally got off to sleep.
I woke around 6-6.30 am, or poss’ earlier, when Teresa wakes up for work. And I was on the Flex app, 6.30-8am, solid. Trying but failing to book a shift or two. But I could barely stay conscious. And kept drifting off to sleep. With some YouTube snooker playing soothingly in the background.
I had all kinds of crazy dreams. Most of which I’ve forgotten, due to the stop-start sleeping this morning. I seem to have been enduring some kind of cold recently; bouts of tempestuous sneezing, nights of extreme dry throat, and sometimes – like now – a sore throat, partic’ when I swallow.
Teresa has me taking spoonfuls of strong honey with chopped garlic in it. Which does seem to have beneficial medicinal effects. I’m also taking plenty of Jakeman’s menthol lozenges.
I didn’t succeed in booking a shift for today until about 9-10am, in a brief wakeful moment. I’m going to ‘go with the flow’ today. On account of this extreme fatigue. And stay abed until I go to work. Not sure what I’ll do for lunch?
One of the obvious problems with this pattern of morning exhaustion is evening alertness, and concomitant difficulty getting to sleep. And I’m being strictly rationed by the Doc’ on the Zop’.
I’m hoping this is a short interlude? As prior to this cold, or whatever it is, I was sleeping fine unaided. And I want to get back to a more normal routine, ASAP.
One final footnote to all of this: I’m suddenly really feeling the cold!? I’ve noticed, since being on immunosuppressant injections, that my whole metabolism appears to have changed. I tend to be hot all the time. And feel the cold much less than I used to. But just in the last day or two I feel freezing! What gives?
Well… it’s 12.40pm. I gotta get up and go to work. And get some food n’ drink sorted… here goes nuttin’!